I have to register for yet another semester of classes tonight, and per usual, its making me nervous by virtue of the sheer concept. I'm taking another irrevocable step onward. The unknown future is looming. Something like that.
And through absolutely no fault of their own, my friends aren't helping. One of them has is all figured out. One of them has an idea, and had the guts to pursue it. One of them has almost no idea - something more like a dream - and she took a gaping courageous step into space and is waiting for the answers. In this moment, I am feeling neither decisive or passionate enough to echo the former, nor courageous enough to be the latter. But I have to register for classes. So I feel like Future has me by the wrists and is dragging me forward, not kicking and screaming, but sullen and passively resistant.
After all, I have (4...3...) 2 years before I have to leave the safety of this institutional bubble, and the sun is shining.
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